blog changes

As you can see, I have changed my blog. Still more to come! Wait and see!!

About me

coming soon!!

One of my theme songs

Alanis Morissette - Unprodigal Daughter

I had disengaged to avoid being totaled
I would run away and say good riddance, soon enough
I had grown disgusted by your small-minded ceiling
Imagine myself bolting had not been difficult

Soon be my life
Soon be my pace
Soon be my choice of which you'll have no part of

Unprodigal daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
Id invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

I hit the ground running, although I know not what toward
I hit the town feeling, forgetting all that came before
I felt primed and ready, once surrounded by the pawns
I felt culture shocked, but dissuaded, I was not

This is my town
This is my voice
This is my taste of which you've have no part of

Unprodigal daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
Id invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

One day Ill saddle back and speak of foreign adventures
One day Ill double back and tell you about these unfettered years
One day Ill look back and feel something other than relieved
Glad that I left when I did before, I know you, you cant get the best of me

When Id speak of artistry you would roll your eyes skyward
When Id speak of spirituality you would label it absurd
When I spoke of possibility you would frown and shake your head
If I had stayed much longer, Id have surely imploded

These are my words
This is my house
These are my friends of which you've had no part

Unprodigal daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
Id invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

Unprodigal daughter and I'm heading for the west
Disenchanted daughter and this plane cannot fly fast enough
Unencumbered daughter hit the ground running at last
Id invite you but I'm busy being unoppressed

random meme thing

What is your favorite song of all time?
Bon Jovi - Bed of Roses

What is your favorite animal?

Favorite childhood vacation?
going home from dads to mums.

Worst christmas gift ever received?
a pencil sharpener plane. daddy you fail.

Do you have a name for your car?
if i had one i'd name it Maleficent

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
Scotland or Canada

Where would you hate to live?
somewhere i couldnt escape from

What is your favorite flower?
roses and pansys

Do you know anyone famous?

If you were an animal, what whould you be?
a wolf or something with teeth and feet, i dont wanna be the hunted, i wanna be the hunter.

Who is your role model?
i'm trying really hard to be my own role model

Do you care what others think of you?
sometimes if its someone i love

What are your views on homosexuality?
it is what it is, im not going to discriminate.

Do you have any regrets?
not so much anymore.

Are you hot natured or cold natured?
hot with some people, cold with others

Playlist of the week

This is my new bloggy thing. i'm gonna try and do it every week :) (lets see how i go shall we?)

1. My heart is open - Keith Urban (defying gravity)
2. Fuck you - Lily Allen (Its not me, its you)
3. you took the words right out of my mouth - Meatloaf (Bat out of hell)
4. Sober - Pink (Funhouse)
5. Take a bow - Leona Lewis (Spirit)
6. Halo - Beyonce (I am... Sasha Feirce)
7. I do not hook up - Kelly Clarkson (All I ever wanted)
8. Rain on your parade - Duffy (Rockferry)
9. Ur so gay - Katy Perry
10. Holding out for a Hero - Bonnie Tyler

this weeks favorite cd is a draw between Kelly Clarkson - All I Ever Wanted, and Duffy - Rockferry.

Whats your top ten and favorite cd of the week?

Mums Shepard pie

this is my shepards pie!

Mince, corn and peas, gravy for the filling, i cheated with the potato and made "deb" instant mash potato for the top and topped it with cheese. I made the gravy in the pan after i made the mince and it turned out quite well, i made it a little too thick but it didnt matter in the end. this is just a rough recipe, but it tastes good. no salt or pepper and its great :D

Scotland Promise

Grandpa was a Scotsman, he met my grandmother while he was in Canada. They came back to Scotland and lived there for a year, Until the opportunity came for them to emigrate to Australia.

fast forward a few dozen years, and he had died. He went back to Scotland in 1997 and sent postcards back to Australia to his grandchildren. I have his diaries, I went looking for the postcards.

I found them and read them. The postcard that he sent to me said that he had visited some castles and hadn't seen any ghosts. There and then I said that I would go to Scotland and see these castles and see a Ghost.

Whether that be because I was full of grief or something else, but I made this promise and I intend to keep it.

That is the story :)

Meme stolen from Carma

Rules of the meme. Respond and rework. Answer questions on your own blog. Replace one question. Add one question. Tag 6 people (again, I'm going to leave this open to whoever wants to participate- please let me know if you do!)

1. What are your current obsessions? Castle, Dollhouse, Calfornication and Boss - Soul

2. Which item from your wardrobe do you wear most often? Jeans and Jammies

3. Last dream you had? one about my father.

4. Last thing you bought? food and cold and flu tablets

5. What are you listening to? Castle playing on my computer and my typing

6. What is your favorite color? black or red

7. Favorite holiday spots? Anywhere that isnt mums house or my sisters (we dont get along, holidays are another kind of hell)

8. Reading right now? Tales Of the Otori book 1 - Heavens Net is wide

9. Four words to describe yourself. crazy, opinionated, sick, tired

10. Guilty pleasure? Erotica

11. Who or what makes you laugh until you’re weak? the boy running his fingertips over my side and my hip.. makes my hair stand on end.

12. Favorite spring thing to do? go to the city

13. Planning to travel to next? Mums, Perth or somewhere close.

14. Best thing you ate or drank lately? Lemonade. also icey poles

15. Dream vacation? Scotland to fufill a promise

16. Favorite ever film? Dumbo or Sweet Home Alabama

17. Care to share some wisdom? never forget clean underwear

18. Song you can't get out of your head? the theme song from Castle

19. Thing you are looking forward to? having a job and getting a house

20. What makeup item would you like to purchase next? i dont wear makeup, but i would like some earrings.

21. Who would star as you in a movie about your life? and why? (can be living or deceased) Sandra Bullock cos i love her movies.

I dont tag anyone, do this yourself and I'll answer your question :D

the flatmate strikes again

When we moved in I was informed there was to be no shoes in the house. As you can see by this photo he is breaking his own rules. Please note, my blog is not going to become a place where i can ridicule my flatmate, but sometimes things need to be shared.

That sign says " Shoes off please"
but those are his shoes on the kitchen table.
what you cant see in this photo is the shoe rack under the sign on the floor....

so logically, he had to walk past the sign, kick off his shoes, and then pick them up to put the on the table...

This is the moment when it gets so much easier to move out later.

Coke can in the shower

Yes that is my shower.
Yes thats a coke can in my shower.
I cannot explain this.
I assume It's still in there, I havent looked.
All the coke in the house belongs to the flatmate.
If someone can explain why, I'd love to hear it.

Train Musings.

I wrote this on the back of an envelope while on the train. I have not changed how I wrote it, I will just recite it here verbatim.

I am not as old as some
and not as young as others
I am trying to find my place in the world

I stand at the middle of a tall never ending ladder
the rungs below me are gone,
lessons i have learned
shame, humility, love
the bridges i have burned and the
people i have loved
and lost

I am joined occasionally
as I climb by new friends,
old friends and lovers alike

The past lives on below me,
the future a rung ahead
I am climbing a ladder of Life
measured by Life
Not age.

I was thinking as I wrote this about people's lives. Am i five steps ahead of my friends who still live with their parents? One rung back because I'm not good at maths? Am I ahead because I am more mature because of the fact I have to rely on myself more and my friends don't have to worry where next weeks food is coming from? I am not on the same rung as some as my friends, some may be more mature, some may be less. And what happens when we reach the end? maybe its not a never ending ladder, it just appears that way.

I have been reflecting on my life and wondering about my legacy. I am only 20 but I have no superannuation or savings, how am i going to retire? My body feels like its falling apart how am I going to deal when I am older? I do not lead a carefree life, as much as I try to pretend I do. I am worried about my future because I am stuck in a box in my present.

(I did not mean for this post to be so ... deep, but its all true.)

8 things meme

8 Things I'm Looking Forward To:
  • Moving out on my own
  • going to the zoo again
  • being able to afford everything i want and need
  • tomorrow
  • washing the mountain of clothes in my bedroom
  • changing my sheets
  • finishing off the book i am reading
  • grocery shopping

8 Things I Did Today:
  • went on a train
  • listened to my mp3 player
  • made muffins with the boy (technically yesterday but it was at 11.00 at night)
  • washed some clothes
  • went with the flatmate and bought a dryer
  • looked at washing machines and realised i can afford one
  • cooked myself dinner
  • twittered my little fingers to the bone

8 Things I Wish I Could Do
  • move out as soon as i can
  • be independent
  • not let others get me down
  • travel the world
  • get a tattoo
  • drink and not have a hang over
  • win the lottery
  • get a job
8 Shows I Watch:
  • Grey's Anatomy
  • Spicks and Specks
  • Gruen Transfer
  • Brothers and Sisters
  • Underbelly
  • The View
  • Private Practice
  • Ellen
Stolen from Carma

Am meant to tag 8 people but i don't have that many readers
if you happen to see it and feel like doing it, leave a link in my comments and I'll add you to this post.

Six word saturday.

eating chocolate. rolling off to bed.

Stolen from Carma

Info found here

update of sorts

Well, today I recieved a call to get my act together. I didnt get a job that I so desperately need. I cried for about five minutes and then decided to go to Safeway and drown my sorrows in Iced Coffee, mousse and marshmallows.

So this brings me to this...

FUCK. I need a job to be able to move out in November. Time is RUNNING out!! Theres only so much i can save per week, and i need to do it now. I'm seriously in the shit. Excuse all the swearing but i am so scared and so stressed out. I applied to work at Macdonalds, so hopefully that gets me somewhere. I can't believe i'm still stuck in the rut i was in when i was at home, Just not at home and with more money, and more sex...

Hopefully this time next year I'll be able to look back and think all this struggling meant something. Hopefully.

Another Award from Carma

This was given to me by Carma, the most delightfully funny person I know in blogland.

The Rules are as follows:

Include the award logo in your blog or post.
Nominate as many blogs which you like.
Be sure to link to your nominees within your post.
Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

I'm still giggling over the fact that I guessed her new hobby...

See this post
Stepping outside my comfort zone by carma

and then this one
You Guessed it!


and the people i tag with the award are (i dont have many readers)

so i tag
Dam Buster and Frogdancer.